Skip to main content

Web Stories

Featured

Memoir of the Loser - Day 1281

Memoir of the Loser - Day 1281   Yo. Another day passed. It was not an usual day. I ate a looot of oily food today. I guess it's alright since I didn't eat anything during the day and I observed fast on past two days. I worked on my music like every day. My mom and sister went to the temple early in morning but I went later . Still, I had to wake up around one and half hour earlier than my usual time. Its quite cold in the morning. I understand why people have already started wearing jackets and hoodies. But during the day, it can get very warm. My sister had terrible headache through out the day. It could be because of multiple reasons. She woke up early, couldn't take a nap or maybe because she went to the city yesterday and had to navigate through extreme traffic. But I took a long and great nap during the day. I also took some iq tests at night. I have been very curious about my iq. Even though I don't trust them completely, they can give me a rough estimate. The we...
Post a Comment
Read more
Labels

Memoir of the Loser - Day 320

 Memoir of the Loser - Day 320

Yoo, another day passed. So, it was an okayish day. I completely watched a new series I was watching and now I don't have anything to watch. I am quite bored tbh and I don't feel motivated to do any work because... I never get good results. Even on my videos, I rarely get any views. But, one video keep getting videos even though its not a video I like, smh. Why can't all videos get some views? I want to burn YouTube headquarters... Just kidding, in case someone actually burns them, lol. 

I will be honest, I don't like what I am feeling these days, its hard to describe but... I don't want to live anymore. I don't want to die. But its just that... I feel too tired and I just want to not exist anymore. I feel so jealous of others. Everyone else is living their lives, trying their best, happy and then there's me. I am not normal and I don't like that... Its extremely weird and its been happening moRe and more nowadays. I don't know why. Maybe because living is so tough. Its been like this since last few years. 

Maybe, I need therapy. But I just might end up making my therapist depressed. Not that I can afford one in the first place. Speaking of money, my uncle has reached his destination. Who cares, though, right? Oh, that guy I was talking about yesterday. Actually, I heard that he had a heart attack. He is under 25 and he had a heart attack... Its sad. i wish it was me... Lol. Anyway, see ya:)

Labels:

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular Posts