Memoir of the Loser - Day 420

Hey, another day passed. So, I was supposed to check the views I got on my song, if any... But, I don't have the courage to do it. What if I have gotten zero views? I will be heart broken. I gave it my best. So, it will be a little sad. I don't know what to so. Should I just not check it? The problem is that I am stuck with a mindset that nothing will go well for me. That no matter what I do, nothing good will happen to me. Isn't it pathetic? 

  Its night, so the day hasn't ended but I don't think I will check it. I can't. I am scared. That even if I gave it my all, it wasn't enough. So, let's just stop thinking about it. I will tell you tomorrow if I managed to check. I can't even bring myself to be even a little hopeful that I did get few views, lol. Anyway, weather was quite nice today. Not too hot but very clear. I also started reading a new comic  Its very dark and that's not good for me... 

Anyway, my aunt's brother reached America safely. I wonder what I did wrong in my past life and what good work they did that God only listens to them and never me. I can't even bring myself to be happy about it. Because they don't give a damn, so why should I? My aunt didn't even tell us until his brother left because if she had told anyone, someone would have hi jacked the plane. That's what they think.

   My mom also went somewhere today. So many bad things are happening all around our country. I feel bad for students who prepared for the exam and have to suffer like this, smh. Maybe, rich people will always have it their way. People have forgotten about that car accident as well. And people who deserve to be jail have become 'influencers'. I wonder why are most famous people bad? I guess the end is near, lol.  

 Whatever the case, humans continue to struggle until they meet their end. Like me. See ya;)