Day 460

 Hey, another day passed. It was very humid today and now its cloudy. And once again, I realized how my life will end. I cancelled my admission. Why? Because my mom said. She was worried that something had gone wrong because university hasn't even sent a single message. She has no patience. So I canceled it. Now, we will wait for the refund and fill it again offline... If I am fine by then.

 In evening, my uncle asked me to sit on his shop. I refused because I hate it. I have to talk with strangers who keep asking me questions. He called me again and this time I agreed. I shouldn't have.

I went to his shop. In just a few minutes, two guys came and asked me who I was and where my uncle was. I told them I was his nephew. And surprisingly, they said that they were there for me. I had never met them. Then, I called my uncle and asked me to talk to them. I did and on a nutshell, they were there to sell me 'an insurance agency'... Lol. First of all, I knew they were going to talk about something bad. And second, it was my uncle who had recommended me to them.

I can't tell you how much furious I was. I talked with them and somehow managed to make them leave. They probably understood that I wasn't interested at all. I have lost all respect for that bastard. He had sent his on abroad and ne wants me to sell insurances? I hate him. But that's not all. He sells building materials on his shop.

A guy came who wanted to buy bricks. He loaded them in his small truck , gave me money and left. Nothing out of usual. Then, my uncle came back and saw the bricks and started swearing at me and the guy who bought them. Why? Because he took bricks from multiple rows... 😂From this moment, he means nothing to me. I hate that bastard. I couldn't say anything to him. Do you know why? Because they feed us. All because of me. If I had gone to college, it wouldn't have happened. If I was earning, we wouldn't need them.

I can't believe how pathetic I am. I have to listen from someone like him... Lol. But it did made me realize that nothing good will ever happen to me. I mean, that's nothing new. I have known it now since long time ago. If Dad was here, if Grandma was here, we could have been happy. I wonder what wrong things we did in our past life to deserve this. Damn, its probably the longest I have written... No one is going to read this. No one will ever know the truth. No one will ever know what it is like to be me. I wish this whole world could just perish or I could stop existing.