Memoir of the Loser - Day 479

When shYo it was a perfect day in terms of weather. It was cold, cloudy, windy which is all I want. Last night it rained as well so, quite literally perfect for me. But something else happened as well. Apparently, my uncle said something about me to my aunt which she told to my mom. I haven't asked my mom about it and she hasn't told me either.

I couldn't care less about what he thinks about me but my mom has been looking quite sad since morning. Her son is not doing anything while everyone else's son are earning. I understand her. The only reason she has to hear others taunts is because of me. I am only guessing but I think its about the fees. My uncle just wants to say that he doesn't want to pay my college fees. I mean, who even asked him?

We were going to do it ourselves. Heres a thing. He says that I don't do what he says and that's why he doesn't care about me... Bahaha. He wants me to be his servant and do whatever he wants, lol. I hate everyone is this family. They are all the same. Every single person is so selfish and terrible. Yet, they act like they are the ones who are kind and right. The only reason we talk with any of them is because of my mom.

She thinks that we might need them in future and that they will help us. When she knows the truth. Also, I think my sister needs to take anger management classes. She is angry every day for no reason. Especially, if you say something with which she doesn't agree. I pray to God everyday but looks like I am not loud enough or else he would have helped me. I don't know for how long do I have to suffer. I have started reading a new comic as well. That's an only escape from reality for me.  See ya;)