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Memoir of the Loser - Day 1281

Memoir of the Loser - Day 1281   Yo. Another day passed. It was not an usual day. I ate a looot of oily food today. I guess it's alright since I didn't eat anything during the day and I observed fast on past two days. I worked on my music like every day. My mom and sister went to the temple early in morning but I went later . Still, I had to wake up around one and half hour earlier than my usual time. Its quite cold in the morning. I understand why people have already started wearing jackets and hoodies. But during the day, it can get very warm. My sister had terrible headache through out the day. It could be because of multiple reasons. She woke up early, couldn't take a nap or maybe because she went to the city yesterday and had to navigate through extreme traffic. But I took a long and great nap during the day. I also took some iq tests at night. I have been very curious about my iq. Even though I don't trust them completely, they can give me a rough estimate. The we...
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Memoir of the Loser - Day 873

 Memoir of the Loser - Day 873

 Yo. Another bad day passed. It was no better than yesterday. I can't get over it. I don't know how many days it has been since i started feeling this way ... Everything reminds me of that time when things were alright. If only I had kept a backup, if only I had not gone to that guy... If only I had trusted myself. 

It hurts. I can't even eat liked I used to. I had throw food during the day because I couldn't eat it. I am not lying. I couldn't sleep. Last night, it took me around and hour to fall asleep and in morning, I woke up and couldn't fall asleep again. I ... Even cried a little. 

Tomorrow is another bad day. It will be 16 years since my dad died. I wish I could just sleep forever. I trusted God and even he betrayed me when I needed him the most. Like I don't know what I did to deserve that. It's been few months and it's hitting me only now. I managed to postpone the pain but now... It's killing me.

I think I have fever. I don't know the reason. There are floods happening near my city and here I am... Crying over lost data. I know it's stupid but it was not just data to me... If I could go back in time, I would stop myself no matter what from going to that shop. I will curse him till I die. See ya;(

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