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Memoir of the Loser - Day 1134

 Memoir of the Loser - Day 1134 Yo. Another hot and sunny day passed. I finally opened my laptop after almost 2 weeks. Coincidentally, its been exactly 7 years since I bought it. Its on its last legs and begging me to retire it but I don't have any other option... I wish I could buy a new laptop but I can't. I wasted my time using my mobile . See, I can't work efficiently if I am not in my room and I can't sit in my room because there is only one ac in our home and that's not in my room. I did try my best to work as much as possible. I tried fixing an old song. But every time I export it, I hear pops and crackles. I don't hear anything during the playback in the daw itself. Anyway, I took a nap during the day. Because last night I couldn't sleep properly once again because of my mom snoring. I got my bike fixed and it feels weird lol. Also I got some weird red spots on my face... It was sun burn I think. They disappeared after a while when I wasn't in th...
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Memoir of the Loser - Day 874

 Memoir of the Loser - Day 874

 Yo. Another day passed. Like you would expect, it was a terrible day. Nothing unusual compared to past few days. I hate it. Just to give a recap... Few months ago, I lost everything from my mobile because of someone else. And I didn't have a backup... Yes, even in this day and age. 

Today, it's been 16 years since dad died. Just when I thought that my life was going well... It all came crashing down. For me my phone wasn't just a tool... It was a small diary. I have been depressed because of that. I no longer enjoy the things I used to. That's called anhedonia and it hurts.

I can't sleep easily. If I do and wake up even once... It's impossible. I can't eat. I can't listen to music or watch a video... Not to mention, my head hurts. I feel the world spinning. I can't endure it anymore. I went to the doctor and had low bp and high fever... My family thinks I am sick... They don't know the truth.

It hurts. My heart feels like it's going to push out of my chest. I can't break the mental loop that I am caught in. If only I had done this or that. I found the solution to my problem the night I handed my phone to someone else... I don't know for how much longer I can do it. I wish I could back in time... See ya;(

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