Memoir of the Loser - Day 879

 Yo. It was a far better day than past few days. I am mostly over what I lost. I am trying to find best ways to cope. It won't happen immediately but it will , soon, hopefully. Anyway, i went to the city with my sister. It was sunny and hot. I couldn't even get ice cream...

She wanted to buy some stuff for her work while I had to buy books. She got her stuff but I couldn't buy my books. The shopkeeper wasn't on the shop. Instead, it was some one else. Also, I got several messages from my classmate... He really is like me from the past. I don't know what he is feeling but I can't even endure my own pain. I replied but nothing too exciting.

Also, finally, there is news about the exam result. It will be declared in few weeks... Hopefully. I am not keeping my hopes up. My sister had to courier some stuff so, I had to wait outside the post office. A kid approached me... Asking me for money. He was probably 4 or 5 years old. It made me realize that my life is also someone's dream.

This is the world we live in. He didn't even know what he was going but he had to ... He couldn't even piece together his sentences properly. His clothes were torn and he was barefoot. I could only feel pity for him. I gave him some money... and he got so happy. The amount I wouldn't care for if I lost it. He got so happy when he got it ...

This world is cruel. I know that the amount of money I gave to him created no difference... but I couldn't ignore him. Yeah, it was for my mental peace... Anyway, that's all for today. My head hurts. I couldn't sleep properly during the day... It was too hot. There is a kid who comes to my sister for tuition. My sister agreed to teach him because of his parents ... But that guy doesn't care. He doesn't study and wastes his time however he can. See ya;)