Memoir of the Loser - Day 1123

Yo... Not really a good day. Had high fever and other terrible symptoms in morning. Because effect of medicine has faded. Power came but in early morning and it was hard to fall asleep because I had taken medicine last night that made me sweat buckets. In morning, I had to take another dose.

But it took a long time to get better. Almost 2 hours. It was very hard... But fever and other symptoms did go away. My sister had her exam and when she returned, she brought ice cream and noodles... She does care about me because she has gone through the same thing.

And I had an argument with my mom as well..sometimes, she makes me hate her so much. Like why can't she be... Normal. She keeps talking about others when no one gives a damn about us. Like for example one of my cousins is gone somewhere and we don't know where and why. My mom keeps talking about him, smh. She gains nothing from doing this. I am sure she is angry now that I am unemployed and sick.
 
As if it's my fault. I took a nap during the day and when I woke up ... Fever and pain was back. They were rising gradually.And then, finally, in evening it got too high. I was burning and even walking felt like climbing a mountain, not that I have ever climbed one. I went to another doctor and to my bad luck, his clinic was closed. Fortunately I had one more dose and I took it and now, fever and pain is mostly gone except for my head and neck which hurts a lot.

Before I took medicine, I was so hot that everyone who came to check and touched me had their jaw dropped. And then, my mom had the audacity to say that I am too weak to bear pain... When she touched me and saw how high the fever was, only then she understood what it was like. I talked with that guy as well and there is a wall between us now because I have stopped hiding what I truly feel.

I did go to the temple in evening. Tomorrow in morning, I will go to the clinic again to get medicine and blood tests done. I also have to get medicine for my allergies... Ah, I am so tired of taking medicine every day. Fuck. My cousin also called me because her mom had told him about my condition. His family isn't any less annoying. It was also sunny and hot. I guess, the only good thing was eating ice cream. My school has posted the results of students as well. I don't know why I care but it make me realize that people lie a lot. See ya;)