Memoir of the Loser - Day 329

Yooo, another day passed and Today, I had a fight with my mom. Honestly, I expected it. Like I told you, yesterday, my cousin came and said somethings to my mom. It was about me and they weren't really nice. My mom knows that I am wrong this time and it's him who is an asshole... but my mom can't say anything to him. Why? Well, there are multiple reasons and most of them are senseless.

Let's just say that she cares about him more than she cares about his own son. Now, so because she had to listen to things he said because of me, she is angry but she didn't say anything yesterday. She took my side. However, last night, I couldn't sleep because of my mom's snoring. So, I had to wake her up. Let me tell you that I waited for few minutes before I woke her up in case she woke up on her own.

But she didn't and I had no choice. fast forward to today's after noon, she started insulting me infront of my aunt and sister and said so many things. She was trying to be savage... but I knew why she was acting like that. The things she said? It will take too long to mention but I didn't just listen. How could I? Basically, she wanted me to stay shut and let her sleep and snore which will ruin my sleep.

That's not the end. Like you know, many dogs bark at night around my house for whatever reason. So, I have to go on the roof and scare them away. I do that rarely. She knows i can't sleep if there is even a little bit of noise. I have been like that since i was a child and yet, she keeps insulting me and blaming me for everything. the reason I go to the roof and not shout of the window is to not wake her up but... anyway, let's stop here. You get the gist of it. And even after all of this, she calls me a bad son and asks me to be like my cousins, lol. It's so funny.

Anyway, i worked a little bit today. I am not getting any views since I got quite a large number of views on one of my videos few days ago. But, thats okay. Now, I understand that no one, not a single person cares for you and loves you unconditionally, at least, thats true for me... which is sad. But what can i do? I was just fated to be surrounded by such people who only care about me when they need something from me. It's quite pitiful but it is what it is. I wish I could leave and live somewhere alone...see ya:) i said so much today, sorry for that...